So, I've noted a curious little phenomenon of late. Something I've never really encountered in the last 27 years, and I have to admit it has me somewhat bewildered.
I started a brand new job at Children's Hospital on January 13th, as their newest general oncology provider. It has been great, and I've really enjoyed it. Almost every day as I'm walking through the halls of the hospital or clinic, I have to pinch myself and ask if this is real- do I really have one of the best jobs in the world?!?
However, something I have noticed. People are reacting to this so differently than I'd expected. I say the words "kids" and "cancer" and... most people don't really say another word about it. Most just completely drop the subject. Family, a few close friends ask, sure... but still. This is just weird.
Never in my life have I felt like people in general were so disinterested in something. I understand a little, that people think it is sad... but I've been all over the world and this is by far NOT even close to the saddest you can encounter! Quite the opposite... It is such a joy to go to work there every day! These children are so precious and lovable. So resilient, too, and I am finding how much I truly love being with them and helping make such a difference in their lives.
One of the older, wiser PAs told me today, "Erin, you'll find its better to just say you work with children. Over the years I've learned that most people really don't want to hear about kids with cancer. It just makes them sad. And, its harder for you and I to understand because we don't have children."
I guess I can understand that. But I'm glad that for now, those little chillins give me JOY!
